Laertes surfaces

My mind has been a little preoccupied with work lately. Not because I'm stressed. I am trying to maximize my training and work opportunities. I had decided to get a part-time job, but I won't really need to if I expand my knowledge. Ah, what a wonderful life. I'm sorry it took me so long to find it.

Porter has discovered that I have removed him from my friends list. The following conversation took place:

porter: no longer friends?
fleur: After our last conversation I got the feeling you were pretty much done with this
porter: i just mentioned that i don't have allot of time for it at the moment. not that i didn't want to talk to you or be your friend
fleur: You cancelled our last appointment and I don't hear from you unless I contact you.
porter: sorry. my schedule changed at work and i've been working out allot.
fleur: No need to apologize. My thinking is that if you can't make a little time for something then maybe you don't want it.
porter: ok.

This conversation occurred friday and that's the last I heard from him. He only seems to contact me when he has some particular need. "Friends"? I hardly think so...

However, speaking of friends.... Newcomer came and spent the day with me on Sunday. Despite my full weekend, I had managed to get almost all of my chores done before he arrived, so we had a nice day. We started with breakfast and came back for some play time. He has acquired some new toys since we last met. Ankle, hand and thumb cuffs, a hood, a blindfold, and a "humbler". I enjoyed the toy tour, but we only managed to use the blindfold. It was very comfortable and extremely effective.

Newcomer is fond of anal sex. Usually I have to be in a particular mood for it, but he has a tendency to not ask. Last time he tried to use a cock ring with the anal - it made him far too big to be comfortable. He pinned my hands between his chest and my back, so I left him with some scars on his chest from me clawing him as he tore into me. He's not allowed to use the ring anymore. When he finally left around 7:30, I was ready for a long sleep. I succumbed almost instantly!

And finally, Nightengale. He contacted me this morning with some not so subtle hints that he wanted to deliver a spanking to me this morning. I declined. I wasn't in the mood, and not even close to being in a submissive head-space at all. My mind was still immersed in my morning work routine and some conflict resolution there. I hadn't been home for more than an hour yet. Aside from my mood, our contact has been spotty at best and my interest in a Dom has waned quite drastically. I pretty much let him know that he would have to work a little to get my interest back.

And now for boys in the real world. An interesting prospect has popped back up. He first noticed me at our christmas party last year. He swore he'd never met me before - he said he would have remembered because I'm so hot. (Oh. My. God. Does this really work when you're trying to pick up a woman? I'm sure it does, but only if the woman is keen on being picked up.) I explained to this young buck that I look decidedly different at work and many don't recognize me outside of that. It took a man I worked with on a regular basis 20 minutes to figure out who I was. I dismissed it as a sign of his liberal use of alcohol, but apparently I look dramatically different. Ah, well. I don't go to work to be pretty. Anyway, I completely dismissed this young thing's advances due to my situation with my former master and hadn't seen him in a while. Lately I've been seeing him at work often. I think I'll call him Laertes.

Laertes spends a lot of time on his physique and it shows. He has a reputation of dating only the most beautiful of women. Arm trophies. Lately I've heard that he is extremely shy and very quiet. He has been defended by others who say that although he comes off as aloof, it is only his shy nature. I think many are put off by his reputation - including me. Why, pray tell would he be interested in me? Hmmm. Last night he commented that I could do anything to him that I wanted to. I told him to be careful, he had no idea what he was asking. He said that "people talk" and that he has heard about me. I could not get him to elaborate, but he told me to not worry. I keep my two worlds fairly separated, so I was slightly alarmed by the comment. My professional life does not need to be inundated with stories of my personal life. It solidifies my reasoning that I should not date anyone I work with.

In any case, Laertes is intriguing.... My gut reaction is to play with this poor boy's mind a little, probe it to see what makes him tick. I find that I am growing into the type of woman that is far more cautious when it comes to relationships - more relaxed. I will not force anything. Let him come. Although, with his shy nature, I wonder if he will. His parting words to me were of the nature of "I will have to live with my fantasies". I replied, "Well, if that's the way you want to keep it, it's all you my dear."

I will amuse myself with this little game. For now.