If you're expecting perfect, go look somewhere else

Just stopping in a for a minute. I'm in the middle of a marathon work week that is at present beating me up.

So I'm not sure if it's just being tired, but I find myself a little testy of late. I'm a pretty sensitive person. I may come off as a hard-hitting bitch, but I really take criticism to heart. I've gotten quite a bit lately and it's taking it's toll. I deleted my rant the other day because it just didn't seem fair to vent about something that is a touchy subject for me. It makes me look hot-headed and irrational. I can believe what I want to believe, but it's unrealistic to think that I should need to or even want to change the mind of the world. I need to just be happy being who I am and let others be. And I am. Happy being me, that is. I just feel a little judged is all. And that makes me weary. It's also making me want to climb under the covers and hide. Sometimes I hate being human.

So far there's been relatively little contact for me with anyone new. I'm not sure I'm in the mood to cultivate it anyway. You may not be aware of it, but some of you out there are very difficult to keep up with. (Not that I'm saying that you want me to, of course.) Sometimes it boggles my mind the limitless thoughts and activities this life brings. I do find it excruciatingly difficult sometimes to live up to particular submissives' standards of what a Domme should or should not "be". I understand the irony of that statement, by the way. Sometimes I feel that my techniques and stories are being minutely dissected and analyzed by those I have never met. It makes me self-conscious and almost unwilling to share anything with you. I keep reminding myself that I am using this medium as a cathartic way of expressing myself and a way of keeping a history I can go back and reference when needed. I should not be worried about what you think at all.

I'll be working on that.