I am tired. Very tired. Emotionally and physically. I am starting to feel that familiar pull to go into hiding until my mental exhaustion and slight depression is over. I'm not a "hey, lets go out and party so I feel better" kind of person. I hibernate.
WARNING: Rant ahead. Read at your own risk. deleted Rant concluded....for now.
As for the other developments in my life... saratoga wrote a very lengthy post today about Dominas. It made me really think about the impression I give as a Dominant. I don't want to come across as nonchalant or fickle. I am looking for a long-term loving relationship. After finishing my last post regarding Porter, I realized it felt all wrong. I have no desire to "play" at this just for the sake of playing. My intent is not casual and I am willing to hold out for that special person. saratoga just made brought it home - and not gently. And in related news... Last night Newcomer sent me a link to some clips by some vicious dominas that kind of made me wince. The women humiliated, kicked, screamed at and degraded these men to the point that I felt so bad for them as submissives. Maybe there are men out there that like this sort of thing, but it horrified me. It seemed to be a shining example of abuse rather than domination. Another style I can't get my head around. But I respect their right to enjoy it!
*sigh* Now I really am exhausted.
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1 comment:
The brutal F/m clips are produced for guys. I'll have to admit that until I found myself in a loving relationship that includes BDSM that my fantasy life was terrifyingly harsh.
Many dominant women do want a submissive partner who is a true companion. It continues to amaze me how few men catch on to this and offer themselves to women as things rather than people.
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