Where is MY boy?

I spent my morning being a domestic goddess. Pre-cutting fruit to take to work, making banana bread for breakfast, etc. It's getting too warm to cook comfortably in here any more today.

So domestic chores aside, all of this talk of slave training is making me want to step up my search for a suitable submissive. I have met someone online who may be interesting, but he lives a bit of a distance away. Makes it very difficult to train the way that I like. I am very hands-on. I did watch a particularly interesting clip of a Domme yesterday and I loved her style. Her voice was soft unless she needed to remind the boy she was whipping of their agreement to thank her for the pain she was inflicting upon his ass, cock and balls. He movements were powerful, fluid and graceful - definitely worth emulating.

Yesterday MistressM left me a note asking about forcing my subs to taste their own cum. I thought I had discussed this here before, but I can't seem to find the post, so here goes again. I am quite fond of bringing my subs my own twisted version of education. One of the things I take delight in is teaching them what it's like to suck cock. I have not gone so far as to make them suck a real one, but a dildo works well. How can you truly understand the act and respect the person doing you that favor when you have no idea how truly uncomfortable it is? If I had a nickel for every time my head was forced down on a cock, or cum spurted in my mouth expecting me to swallow it... I teach my subs humility - understand what you've been asking for and what a privilege it is to receive it. Every one that has tasted his own cum finds it revolting, yes, but now understands. Luckily, in my world, they don't really have a choice but to obey. Porter actually had the balls to ask if eating his own cum was "safe". Well, haven't you expected women in your life to do it? That gave me a very good idea of the general state of the male mind and this practice is now a staple in my book. So, MistressM, I have no idea how wide the practice is but any slave trained by me can expect it. It may serve to prevent them from asking to cum in my presence often!

The discussion of penetrative sex between Domme and sub has also sparked a few new observations for me. Why should it make a man feel like he has power over a woman because he knows she wants his cock inside her but not make a woman feel powerful when she knows her Master wants to put his cock in her? Hmm. Good question - and one I am guilty of discriminatory thought on thanks to being raised in a male-dominated society. I guess the interaction hinges on the perceptions of the particular people involved. Why should I not have a fuck-toy? I think that as women we have long focused on the pleasing of men to make us feel worthy of them. The male orgasm seems to be the end-all and be-all for a "successful" round of sex. Even I have had a tendency to ignore my own orgasm - even faking it. Of course, I stopped doing that years ago - why reward bad sex with positive reinforcement? So the answer for me seems to be very clear. Do not allow the sub to cum or make the experience a little different by making them lick it up. I remind you once again that these are my own thoughts on the matter, and do not represent the community at-large.

So there have been a couple of men on my mind lately. One of them is my former master. I have no idea why. I have no desire to reinitiate anything with him, talk to him or see him at all. But I find myself wondering where we would be in our relationship had we stayed together. The other man is far more interesting and tantalizing to think about. Laertes. Lately when I have imagined a scene, he is the one in restraints. I haven't seen him in a couple of weeks. Maybe this week we will run into each other... I will be drinking him in and memorizing every contour of his body, to be sure. I have always imagined having to coax him into this life, slowly choreographing every step. I've heard some things that make me wonder though. Hmmm. Maybe I need to put less weight on what I hear and more action toward my intent.